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What's one thing you regret doing, or not doing? 
Submitted by ashleyy.

my regret or regrets for that matter are simple; I regret not taking more risks. I'm not talking about jumping of a plane type of "risk" the risks you take with life, with people. Not big regrets, simple things. Its silly but for example not talking to a certain person or being honest with them. Things like that. I regret not having enough courage to do those things that I deeply wanted to do.
I know people say " don't dwell in the past. what's done is done." And honestly I don't. It just when you look back on your life you can't help but wonder what you're life would have been like if you did that one thing. If you would have a better life. On the other hand (though it seems cheesy) I am thankful for these regrets because I have learned from them, in a sense? I know now that there are somethings that you just have to do. period.

winter is still here, and we have another snow day to prove it. thats two in the last week. At this rate nothing will get done. and oddly i'm okay with that.
yesterday was pretty interesting. I recieved my letter/short story from the institute of childrens literature. She said with a little touching up, and a change of the tense it could possibly be a marketable piece. I am excited for that. So soon I will have to create a cover letter or a query. I'm really excited. I'm nearing the end and truthfully i'm going to miss it, but also happy that I can start another part in my life. Well maybe i'm getting ahead of myself. But it's been a dream of mine to have something published. Throughout this course i've learned to respect the art of writing more. There's alot more work involved in creating a suitable manuscript. I hope that I soon accomplish my dream. I really am excited though, but if not, it was great while it lasted.
You know those days that you have so much to say but you don't know where to begin, or how to do it. Its exactly what today feels like for me. Honestly. So much going through my head right now. I just thankful for the good things you know? They can so easily be taken away, but it's not good to assume they will. Believe me I've done that. I guess what i'm trying to say is thanks.

that is suffice.

tuesday feburary 5th 2008.

school: two words; not so bad

" let's make like hockey players and get the puck out of here" - charlie
                                                                                     two and a half men.

get it? hahah.

well then; today was to say the least an interesting day. well somewhat. today is January February 4th 2008. Today was the first day of second semester or second if you count the snow day.

schedule:  1) anthropology
                2) 16th century history 
                3) english 
                4) french. 

anthro: it's not as bad as i thought it would be. I might be jumping the gun here, since there are "questionable" people but the course itself is summed up in this word; interesting.

history: well i pretty much don't know anything about that as my diagnostic test proves. but the teacher's nice and im looking forward to the Renaissance period. ( whatever that is)
english: ack! two words: seating plan. that would be okay if a) it weren't alphabetized and b) if i actually talked to people there
french: one guy. haha. bonjour mon amis.
LUNCH: sucks. ahaha. 

it'll be fine. I'm an optimist, and im breaking out of my shell. (right?)

"You're an amazing girl." - james lansome  
                                      first daughter

is that so hard?

yo. today was amazing. it was supposed to be the first day of second semester butt  there was this big snow storm, so no school. so now I am at home. happily. I will have to go shovel the snow soon but whatever.

big news of the day: snow storm.

"Everybody thinks that my brother stinks like a piece of yellow cheese. But me, I say that he's okay as long as there's a breeze." - D.W. 
                             arthur  

childhood favourite

my book list (so far)

- the perks of being a wallflower; Stephen Chbosky.
- anything by sarah dessen
-  Charmed Thirds; Megan McCafferty  
-  Fourth Comings; Megan McCafferty

" You don't always have to be who they want you to be, you know?" - kat stratford;
                                                                                          10 things i hate about you.

                 exactly.

exams: complete.

task at hand: get a job & get out more.

p.s please hook me up.

"Chance is a word void of sense; nothing can exist without a cause." - voltaire. 

not sure what to make of it.

thanks for everything this week. you know who you are.

"Don't hate the player, HATE the game!"  ; different i know..

sunday, january 20th. Sick as heck. runny nose, cough, the whole deal. I'm always sick around exams. Always. Maybe stress. Jeez. So much to do before wednesday ( first exam; math). I have a 55, and i need to pass and do good. not bring down my average, and so the universities don't um look at it.

Not much has gone on. Really. A couple of incidents that were like ?! but nothing major. I really have nothing to say. Toodles.

"Out of your vulnerabilities will come your strength."  - Sigmund Freud

Today has been one heck of a day. honestly. Emotionally really. Like alot is going through my head. Loads. But ill get to that. hopefully. Today is Thursday January 10th.

First off in the morning I felt like poop. My stomach was like hgfjghf. Stupid pencilcase. So no school for me. I actually enjoyed my day off when I actually started feeling better. It was a pajamas and slippers type of day. I spent the whole day like that. Currently i am like that. Pajamas are love. So comfortable.

Okay so while I was home, I finished reading this novel. It has to be one of my favourites. Never have I related to the main character this much. The book was soo inspiring. I absolutely loved it. It makes me want to take chances, to lives life. It makes me want to live life. It's called the truth about forever. And its amazing. I really think this book changed the way i think. or live. or something. wes; one word amazing. Theres this one game in the book called truth. I would absolutely love to play that with someone. With my Wes. Or with anyone. I think its really helpful.It just makes you think  about stuff.  i've always been worried about stuff, and people, and this book just showed me that you can't always live afraid. And now i know. From this day on, i hope i can live it, not just believe it. I think i've grown as a person. Secondly i think i can now tell people what i always wanted to. Well not all of it. Seriously this year things have really changed. Jus somethings have changed. And i like it.

I think i might have a job. At tim hortons. Well im going for my interview saturday i think? They have yet to call me. But yeah. I now more than ever i think im ready. Seriously something inside me today changed. Honestly. I hope its for the best. Like a good change. But only time will tell.

ps. I love those in my life. Honestly. You'll never know. But the little things you do, ( good or bad) make me who I am.

" Forever is composed of nows" - Emily Dickinson.